Thundering Screams

I scared myself.

What the hell? They spend nights over his house? When the fuck did this happen? Let me tell you, I was pretty surprised when I found this out. Okay, so I was devastated, screamin' and shit, but I got over it! At least she didn't try to hide it and stuff. This is all gettin' to my head so fast. I need to chill.

So I chickened out again. I'm sure Siggy will be disappointed in me, and Nancy, but whatever. I'm gonna tell her soon! I swear it! It's just today, with her Grandfather's birthday and all, I didn't think it was the "right" time to say it. For now, I'll stay quiet until I find the opportune time. I fuckin' swear I will.

I really wanna help Nancy out so badly. Even if I won, say, one thousand dollars or more, I'd put a considerable amount into getting Nancy a decent filming camera. Her happiness is important to me and I want her to know it.

There's lightning outside, but I don't hear any thunder. Muffled lightning? I think so.

edit:

Depending on what lies in her schedule, I may be seeing her tomorrow, thus I am going to give the "talk" to her.

Like I've said before, I'm going in knowing that there's a great chance that she will turn me down. But even so, I have to know how she feels! I can't help but to think about everything she's said and done in the past, and how that may help me. She still wears the ring I've given her, and she's said that she wears it because she still thinks of me. So many things left unanswered! Tomorrow, I'm gonna have the balls and ask her. There's no other way around it. A 90% chance she says no to another chance, and 10% she says yes to my plead for love.

And so it continues. I'll have an interesting story for the next entry, for sure.