Endless & 100 Million Dollars

Unfortunately, that's what the pain is.

Great news! I got the days off that I needed for the DC/ Virginia trip! Hurray! This is the next big thing I am looking forward to.

So, I've been told I don't act myself when I'm around Kate. Apparently, I look sad, and there's a visible difference in my "glow", which becomes "dim". Why do you suppose that is? Well, I'm pretty sure it's the fact that I'm infatuated with her, yet she refuses to acknowledge me as a lover, despite her past feelings for me. My love for her is unrequited, so of course I'm gonna feel damn shitty. And I always do when I think about it. I try my best to mask the pain so people don't question me.

I guess I'm not doing a very good job at it. I'll talk to Siggy about this.

Stupid Moulin Rouge, misleading to no end. Aaargh!

If I had 100 Million dollars...

1. I would quit my job and become a full-time student at UHart.
2. Buy a plot of land and build a decent sized house for me and Nancy.
3. Fix the car I have, as it would just be waste (even with millions of dollars) to buy a whole new car.
4. Hire a language instructor who can help teach me the languages I want to speak!
5. Pay for college for all my friends and family.
6. Send some my Parents' way.
7. Send some to the family in the Philippines.
8. Donate to charities of my choice.
9. Buy a decent sail boat and learn how to sail it along the coast.
10. Live my life healthy and the way I've always lived it, just with a large sum of money!

Hypocrite

Indeed so.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return". That's true. Too bad my love is unrequited. What makes these statements ironic is that I quoted the first from Kate's status on AIM. I'm starting to feel sick right now. Perhaps I'll delve deeper into this.

I still haven't asked Tim for the days I need off for the DC/Virginia road trip I'm taking with Signe, Nancy, Haley, and Kate. Damnit, I'm gonna do that tomorrow!

I've been thinking a lot about Bird Song, but I haven't done anything for it. All these emotions and ideas need to be channeled through something. I can't let them go to waste.

Well, that's all I got.