Let's Talk About Love II

She's my disease that's slowly corroding my very living-fiber.

Yay!

So, I've just now come to realize that this is like a diary more so than an open blog. As far as I know, no one reads this except me and, occasionally, my sister. Whatever. I couldn't care less otherwise.

Following up on some advice my Dad gave me, I visited Roosh V's website. Now, I don't agree with a number of things this guy does or believes in. However, the dude is a master at "the game", and that's something any guy can respect, especially me. Roosh gets laid regularly with pretty women. I suppose you can say that I'm a bit jealous, but any guy would be. However, as stupid and gay as this may sound, I'm not looking for only sex. Surprise! I've heard love is only for women and gays. That's total bullshit. Some of these guys have problems that I don't want to know about, maing them into heartless robots that just want an sweet ass on their cock. Excuse my derogatory choice of words, but it's true. Now, I'm not saying sex is bad; hell no. What I am saying is that I value and cherish the connection that is established between two lovers. Sex usually always comes after, right? So there's no worries.

Any way, I registered to Roosh's forum. I posted my plight and watched as Roosh's finest commented. The comments were what I thought they would be. Here are some examples:

"Date other women"

"... stop talking to her completely."

"in your case, you're beating a dead horse..."

And my favorite from Roosh himself:

"Be a man and move on."

Personally, I'm only listening to some of these comments. Unfortunately, I can't listen to Roosh's comment, and here's why. Kate is so deeply rooted into me, that it just not easy to forget about her. I can't. You see, it was easy She's still my friend and I love her. I cant just abandon that, not me. Other guys may find that easy, but I don't. She may not "love" me back, but I know she cares about me.

Also, I do want to date other women, as I think that would finaly get my mind and conscious off of her. Problem is: I don't know any other women! At least, not until I start college, which won't be until Fall. I'm also 19, so it's not like I can pick up girls in bars or clubs. And let me tell you, there is no game to be had at work. Unless you like raisins. Heh heh.

On the subject of ceasing to talk to her, I will start to go weeks without speaking to her, dropping a line on occassion. She'll have to talk to me, not the other way around.

Let's face it, I'm such a loser. So many opportunities in Virginia to get laid, but I never took them. I'm perpetually stuck in love with a friend who's not even interested in me anymore. And I'm not even sure Desire will work, but it's still a plan. Desire mostly comprises of me getting in the best shape of my life. Even though it was originally planned just to get Kate back, if I can get some extra attention, I would welcome that too.

This summer is going to suck, because I'm going to force myself to stop thinking about Kate in such a romantic manner. And her obvious interest in Xanth is tough to deal with. But you know what? Fuck it.

Love hurt so damn much but what else is new, right?