Conclusion

I told her.

But I only said that I still liked her, and that I didn't expect anything from her. Kate understood, but she said nothing else.

I've concluded that her feelings of me are mixed. She probably doesn't think of me like she used too, how she told me exactly what I told her just a few minutes ago. Kate revealed to me that she still liked me over a year ago (last November) but this no longer holds to be true.

It's not her unrequited love that hurts the most, but it's the damn irony. When she told me last November, I had just gotten over my feelings for her, to a point where I wanted her to date someone else. We were hundreds of miles apart, so even if I said I still liked her then, that love would have dissolved very quickly. But now that I have moved back, it would seem that those ancient, undying feelings for Kate resurfaced, and I found myself infatuated once again. It took me this long to tell her how I currently felt about her, but it seems Kate's feelings are no longer there. And I'm stuck here wondering what I should do now.

Whether she is going to think about this matter any deeper or totally disregard my feelings because she has given up on the prospect of starting another relationship with me is definitely unclear, but I'm not going to doubt either one. The best thing to do now is do what I need to do, which is find work and apply for school, with Dad's help of course. Another thing, is, continue with Desire. That's the only thing I have left to win Kate's heart again, despite its continuous need of time, money, and effort.

If all fails, then that's okay. Really, it is. At least I will know that it was never meant to be.

Until then, I still remain hopeful. Maybe something good will come my way.