Originally posted December 15, 2008:
If only it were that simple.
I want to say that I'm tired of having 70%+ of my blogs being about Kate, but I can't help it. It's all said and done. I can edit all the entries I want, but I'll still end up writing another at four in the morning, complaining how I can't sleep. I need to get over it. I'm forcing myself not to care, and maybe it's not the best thing to do, but there isn't any other way to deal with it. Genuinely not caring is easy. Forcing yourself to not caring is hard. Extremely hard. I've done this before, that's what kills me. Burning away the fondness I have for her down to just being a casual friend is something I don't look forward to again, but it's all my fault. My words, my timing, my actions; whatever I say or do, it'll always be my fault, because that's how it always ends up as.
Why? I don't know.
I'm going to mention that I've been liking a lot of the Deftones' songs lately, as the title is a song by them. I don't know, I guess most of their songs have been summing up the way of I've been feeling recently.
The next destination is Target, then moving on the rest of my life.
Dad better have received my e-mail! I hate FAFSA
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