Endless & 100 Million Dollars

Unfortunately, that's what the pain is.

Great news! I got the days off that I needed for the DC/ Virginia trip! Hurray! This is the next big thing I am looking forward to.

So, I've been told I don't act myself when I'm around Kate. Apparently, I look sad, and there's a visible difference in my "glow", which becomes "dim". Why do you suppose that is? Well, I'm pretty sure it's the fact that I'm infatuated with her, yet she refuses to acknowledge me as a lover, despite her past feelings for me. My love for her is unrequited, so of course I'm gonna feel damn shitty. And I always do when I think about it. I try my best to mask the pain so people don't question me.

I guess I'm not doing a very good job at it. I'll talk to Siggy about this.

Stupid Moulin Rouge, misleading to no end. Aaargh!

If I had 100 Million dollars...

1. I would quit my job and become a full-time student at UHart.
2. Buy a plot of land and build a decent sized house for me and Nancy.
3. Fix the car I have, as it would just be waste (even with millions of dollars) to buy a whole new car.
4. Hire a language instructor who can help teach me the languages I want to speak!
5. Pay for college for all my friends and family.
6. Send some my Parents' way.
7. Send some to the family in the Philippines.
8. Donate to charities of my choice.
9. Buy a decent sail boat and learn how to sail it along the coast.
10. Live my life healthy and the way I've always lived it, just with a large sum of money!

Hypocrite

Indeed so.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return". That's true. Too bad my love is unrequited. What makes these statements ironic is that I quoted the first from Kate's status on AIM. I'm starting to feel sick right now. Perhaps I'll delve deeper into this.

I still haven't asked Tim for the days I need off for the DC/Virginia road trip I'm taking with Signe, Nancy, Haley, and Kate. Damnit, I'm gonna do that tomorrow!

I've been thinking a lot about Bird Song, but I haven't done anything for it. All these emotions and ideas need to be channeled through something. I can't let them go to waste.

Well, that's all I got.

The Half-Baked Bread Baker

That baker sure knows how to roll a fat one. Ha ha!

I've been watching a lot of Naruto Shippuden and Heroes lately. Two very good shows, if you're a fan of that ind of stuff. Whatever, it all keeps me occupied.

Stuff at work's been pissing me off. I haven't been able to get the days I want off. I'm gonna try and mend that tomorrow. I need Sunday off because of Sausage-Fest! Gah! I' gonna cry if I don't get it.

Later this week, I'm gonna get the parts to fix my car before May rolls around.

Damn, time is going by fast.

You're a Monkey filled with Rocks

You most certainly are.

Any way, geez. This week is just crazy in terms of scheduling at work. I'm not gonna like Friday whatsoever, even if it's only for four hours. If they try to get me to stay longer, I'll say fuck'em! Yeah! Besides, it's all good right?

I've been slacking hard lately. I'm sure I've already stated this in the last post but damn, I really am slacking! I meant to wake up at 8 this morning, but like always, failed to do so. That really needs to stop. Also, since May is next month, this means that I must take care of my car problems pronto. I need to find out how to change the spark plugs and fuel injector? I have no clue. I'll ask Dad when I see him on Sunday.

Hurray for Easter eggs!

I started writing some backstory and started planning some plot to my new "project". Right now, it's called "Bird Song" and in fuses science-fiction, fantasy, action & adventure, drama, and romance all in one! Doesn't that sound exhilarating? I sure hope it does. Also, speaking of exhilarating, this paintball massacre dealy-o is next weekend. I still need to ask for it off. And Capoiera. Sweet, sweet capoiera. I'm excited to start, if I can, that is.

Spending Satuday with Kate and whoever else'll be there. Awesome.

Ode to the Slacker

Just kidding. Slacking off is the devil!

Bought a weight. Now I can work on my arms too!

Well, it's almost been a year since I've moved up from Virginia. Ain't that cool? It sure is. Feels weird though.

Hm, I already know what I should be doing, but the question is, will I do it? I damn well should! It's like therapy! That and I haven't been doing a lot of it. No motivation. Then again, when has that ever stopped me? Let's go find some then! Right!

Now I'm just ranting.

Show Me The Way

I need some assistance please.

Maybe I need to lighten up more. Hell, I keep complaining about this, and I know I should've when I had the chance. But I blew it. I kind of regret it now, but I'm sure they'll be more opportunities in the future. It's sad that I'm partially do this so that I can feel that we're even.

This brings me to the supposed road trip we're taking to Washington D.C., if that's actually going to happen. I personally want to, because it could be a lot of fun. I just don't want to feel disappointed when I found out that we can't, for whatever reason. I don't think I could deal with that amount of disappointment all at once. Too much to handle, you know?

I kind of want to see Tonette too, but knowing her, I probably won't see her in D.C. at all unless we stop by Corcoran. Also, the prospective of Kate and Haley meeting my parents in Virginia is weird in itself. Just the thought of Kate being in Virginia would seriously fuck up my psyche, and I'll tell you why. When I think of my time in Virginia, I'm reminded (at first) how sad and depressed I was because I moved away fro Kate and all my friends in Connecticut. It was the epitome of sadness, and later Norfolk became the home I reluctantly embraced, and became the start of a new beginning. Basically, I thought I would never see Kate or anyone from Connecticut again. Which was why when Andy and Matt Slack came down to visit that one summer, it totally blew my mind! Seeing anyone from Connecticut in Virginia totally blew my mind! It was like different memories years apart were fuzing together right in front of me! Same thing happened when Siggy came down with Nancy for my graduation. Totally weird. And now there's the possibility of Kate in Virginia. I think my eyes are going to bleed.

I think Her and Haley spent the night at a Hotel on Friday night. They went to some party involving bowling with Xanth and his buddies. Did they all sleep in the Hotel? Why a Hotel? what was the party for? You know, it's none of my business. As long as there weren't any orgies going on, I couldn't care less, and I shouldn't! Besides, would Kate's parents be okay with that? Hell, I need to stop. You see what I' talking about when I say I'm a bit paranoid? Christ, it seems like it gets worse everyday.

Wow, that was a long paragraph. Any way, I should get in touch with Dale and Pat. I really want to chill with those guys again. Perhaps I'll hit them up on the Face later so we can hang. I totally miss the old days. Speaking of old days, I wonder what John-John and Lindsey are up to? Lindsey is going to be graduating this year, and it's been a couple of years since I've last seen the two, especially John. Those darn Asian kids; we're growing up way too fast.

Well, I've been slacking a lot on Desire. How do I expect to get sweet abs in time for the greatest season of all?
Hells yeah bitches! I really hope summer is going to be kick ass this year. I reeeeaaaaaalllly hope so.

Turquoise Colored Soul Blister

Don't ask me what it means.

Damn. This whole graphic novel thing isn't working out too well. I'm being extremely lazy and not drawing. That will change! I've promised myself. I have all these awesome ideas and I'm letting them waste away in my head! Plus, I don't have Photoshop. I suppose I could just do the pencils and ink them. I need to get some advice from actual comic dudes. I know Kazu Kibuishi uses Photoshop to do his colors for his comic strip "Copper", but maybe I'll ask some other established peeps (perhaps some artists featured in the "Flight" anthology).

I'm actually quite looking forward to attending that Job Fair at MCC with Aunt Anna and Uncle Joe, and perhaps Nancy, if she opts to go. I seriously need a better job.

And wouldn't you know it. My internet is down. So, I'm gonna have to wait and post this some other time.

I'm also pretty bored. Not sure what I should do. I could play more RE5, and I probably will, or maybe I'll start reading that Neil Gaiman book, "Fragile Things", or continue with my "Monsters of the Sea" book by that dude. Richard something.

Hell with it. I'm gonna draw! Or atleast attempt to. Dear God. My skills have declined.

Sadface.