Let the Worries Begin

I am not prepared.

Well, money has become an issue once again. Of course, I'm not stating that currently, but I will be, in the very near future. Many things are gonna happen, which will result in me investing my money to keep a few necessities existent.

Like my cell phone, which is subjected to change very soon.

My car insurance, which subjected to change very soon.

And quite possibly my life, although that may take s longer amount of time to change, but not far off.

Work is tiresome. At a glance, I guess it shouldn't really be all that tiring, but it is. It could be my depression. That would explain a lot. It would explain why I'm tired all of the time, and also why I don't have all the energy I used too. But why am I depressed? Well, let's take a look:

1. I have no love life. I want a relationship, but maybe it's too early. I'm not completely sure. My indecisiveness depresses me, along with my lack of a significant partner.

2. I'm not where I want to be physically. Of course, I could start to change that. I mean, I have all the motivation in the world to start, but why have I not begun? Is it really motivation after all? No, I suppose not.

3. I don't make nearly enough to be single handily be paying for my cell phone bill, my car insurance, and my rent on a monthly basis. In total, that's gonna be like $600 - $800 dollars. Awesome for me.

4. I didn't start college when I wanted to, but then again, It's my fault that happened. I accept that.

I can't think of any more, but I will put more once I think of them. Any way, I always asked to myself, "does karma exist?" I don't think I've done anything wrong, and I'm always polite and grateful to people. So why am I frequently getting shit in my face? Why do financial and other worldly problems seem to plague me? It could just be the way life is. And if that's true, then I hate life, as it is for me now. Granted, life has its good moments, but when you sift through all the shit, you'll be able to find them.

And you can quote me on that!

Hurray for February!

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