Inner Scrutiny

Goals - It's hard to reach them, that's why we don't even bother half the time.

However, my feathery wings of optimism will carry me through all the doubt and self-loathing. Plus, I have great motivation. I'll admit that it can be difficult, even to the point where the stress and agony can become encumbering. I honestly don't know how I do it most of the time. I've never broken completely down, but I feel like I get pretty close to it.

Deep down, I'm ashamed of myself for not being any better at this point. What did I expect? Why would everything land in the palms of my hands while I did absolutely nothing to obtain them? And I'm not being too analytical. This is the way things are for me; it's the truth. I'm always sailing the seas of uncertainty, never coming close to reality's shores. That's salvation.

They say the truth about me. I realize that. My self-esteem has completely shattered, but I'll get better. That's the whole reason of DESIRE.

I guess I am a fool.