Flustercuck

A lot of shit went down, and all I can say is that I'm not so hot right now. Not one bit.

I'm worried sick. I really am. I wonder if she's going to be okay when she gets out of the hospital. How will she cope with this? Dad and I share the same views on the situation and I hope to whatever God there is helps her heed our words. What she got herself into was pretty toxic, and she needs to see the truth in this, because there is no future in that "union", so to speak.

Everyone was scared shitless when I broke the news. I was almost in tears because I had no idea what happened and feared that it was the worst. I gave Kate and Haley quite a scare, and I apologize. Not only to them but to Mr. and Mrs. Grant (Donald & Ruth). I also should apologize to Xanth and Amarah because they got dragged into the mess as well. But it was just that: a huge mess.

She said she would be willing to live her life for me. And I know she meant it. I would say the same thing if I were ever in her situation. It's just like what Dad said: you're life is not your own, but is owned by your family and your friends who love you. If you take your own life, you are also killing apart of the lives of everyone else around you. Suicide is the ultimate selfish act one person could ever commit.

Christina, if you're reading this, keep it to yourself. And I mean it. Do you understand?

On a slight happier note, I am writing this very entry on my new Sony Vaio laptop. It is pure bliss.