Mikey's Apology

I have to apologize for my previous post. I was writing it in a fit of anger. Pretty ugly and juvenile. So again, I apologize.

Well, now that I have calmed down since then, let me muse on what is going to officially happen.

My father is arriving here in VA via Amtrak Saturday morning. I honestly want to leave then, when he arrives, and probably will, since he has stated that he has no problem with doing that. However, he does want to see my two little sisters, and my mother will probably force me to wait. Bah.

Any way, certain peoples are disappointed that I won't be coming down as expected. I , personally, feel terrible about this whole thing. I'll be missing an event that is important to me, and she was really hoping that I'd be there, but as of now, it's impossible. And I feel so horrible about it. Nancy said I shouldn't worry, that I shouldn't let it eat me up. But you know how I am; I set myself up for this kind of misery all of the time.

I hope she can forgive me. She will, but probably not right away. That's something that I'm going to have to deal with. I'll speak with her today, through AIM as usual, and see what's up.

But, I think I found my inner peace. I'm happy to know that I will be in Connecticut, finally returning after being away for so long. I also believe I have my emotions under stable control, so I won't completely flip out when something discreet happens. Or something blatantly obvious. Which ever one, I won't go crazy. Well, perhaps a little.

I need to get myself preoccupied with something so that this entire week will go by seemingly fast. I need to stop thinking on what's happening in CT when I'm not there. It's no time for any of that jealousy shit. I have it under control, remember? Good. Grood.

I wonder if they read this?