At the End of the Tunnel

It's been interesting, these last couple of months.

Slowly letting go, knowing its really the only choice I have. I can only move on from here.

The Bird and the Phantoms (as I am calling it now) is still in its 'conceptional' stage. I've got the characters down to a tee, but the actual plot is still a bit fuzzy, as well as how I plan to piece this puzzle together. Also, I need to do some concept drawing, and work on my environment skills. Finding inspiration is also a hard thing to do.

You know the routine. FAFSA, student aid, and tuition fees. Oh the joy.

I'm not completely faded away. I still have dreams. It's just about all I have left, and only until now I've realized I need to get my shit together.

Aspirations

We all have them, don't we?

Aside from my obvious yearnings for graphic novelizing, I have a musical aspiration that has yet to be touched in the slightest bit. Although other members of my family have found some success in the music field, I have found none. I managed to bullshit my way through my freshman year of high school playing the trombone in my school's marching band. Little was ever accomplished.

So many things ever get done. I'm not sure why. Is it because I'm lazy? Well, yes, that does have a part in it. Actually, it's a major part why I feel my life has not moved forward. I don't like this feeling.

An entire year of bullshitting and I'm done with it. I'm tired. I need some change. And that is exactly what I intend to do.

Up to Snuff

As I gotta be.

Well, seeing as how this is my "personal" blog, I guess it does me little justice in updating it regularly since so few that I know read it, but whateves. It's more like a diary than anything, as dumb as that may sound.

So yeah. 2010 has rolled around and I just made a New Year's resolution. I promised myself that I would complete a good portion of The Bird and the Hounds, since its almost been a year since I first conceived the idea and the project itself, and I have yet to do anything with it. A shame really. As little effort as I have put into this project, I see its completion as a milestone. Perhaps the reason I haven't touched it yet is because I expect so much from it; it's going to be my magnum opus, what The Lord of the Rings and The Chronicles of Narnia were to Tolkien and C.S. Lewis. I'm talking 'bout some surious shit right hurr. But I know I am no where as good as I want myself to be, as I need myself to be to complete the masterpiece I have envisioned! With school out, and me possibly taking this semester off, it gives me ample time to work on what I need to do. 2010 is a time for getting things done. 2009 was a failure; I wasted so much time doing nothing, therefore nothing was accomplished.

But The Bird and the Hounds isn't my only graphic novel I plan on working on, oh no sir. There's Harper's Room, a dark themed "risque" Sci-Fi that follows a man named Harper Cromley as he revisits his family's old mansion to rediscover his father's Robot Labratory. It's really supposed to be fucked up, so I won't give away too much. Basically, Harper goes back to his family's old mansion after he receives urgent letters from the Robo-Genetic Engineering Company his father used to work for, demanding that Harper reveal the location of his father's secret Robot Labratory which still holds valuable research data and equipment still legally owned by the company. So, Harper is accompanied by a representative of the company, her name being Siobhan Channing, and the two venture off to the once Cromley Mansion.

There's also an untitled animal comic I plan on doing, I haven't put much development into it.

2010 will mark the rebirth of Deuce and Bon-Bon!

Well, that's all I have.

Brainstorm

A whole lot of thinking and not enough doing.

To be honest, I know I am going to change "Birds of Bright" to something else. Choosing a title has always been so damn difficult and I don't know why. I feel like I have to decide on a name before I can move on, or else it just wouldn't feel right. So over the course of this very long brainstorming period, I've gone through titles such as "Birdsong", "The Bird and the Hounds", and now "Birds of Bright". The word "bird" is present in the title because of the main character's surname, "Birdsong". I'm probably just gonna change that too. Ugh!

Hmm.

Any way, Target is awesome. I like working there.

I'm gonna download a copy of Photoshop, heh heh. Hopefully then, I'll be able to flesh out these characters and the world of Allea.

Marvelous Mayhem

It has only begun.

Classes are fun, but I'm worried that I'm too lazy to get any homework done. Meh, I might start out shaky, but I have every confidence that I'll ultimately succeed.

Any way, I'm leaving S & S. Good bye! Found a better job elsewhere with hours that don't interfere with school and it pays better too! I have no idea if it's gonna be a shitty one, but so far I have high hopes.

Meh. I really want to start working on "Birds of Bright", but I haven't found the time to do so, between work, school, and martial art sessions. But when I do, I'll be sure to post pictures!

So far, nothing new; just waiting for my orientation at Target to begin and hopefully start living better.

Dandy Lyon

Exactly.

Well, September is here. The air is noticeably cooler and the blistering heat has seemed to stop already. Everyone went to college, including myself, except I stayed. X went to Vermont, and I have to say I miss the guy. Everything just seems dull without his joyous presence, and I really mean that too.

So classes are a bitch, but hey, whatever. I gotta do them, right? I mean, I payed for them so...

I'm really tight on money this month. I feel so poor. I'm as broke as I ever been. Despite my financial problems, I guess I'm okay. Shit could be a lot worse. I still need to change the fuel filter in my car. Hopefully that's the one thing that's causing all my motor vehicle problems.

Any way, I'm sure Ill have a fun filled monologue next entry. Right now, I'm tired, hungry and gonna watch Conan O'Brien do his whacky shit to make me happy. Yay!

Steak House Rock

Mmm... steak.

Any way, Christina and Marissa are here. Fun times will ensue.

I don't feel like going to open gym today; long ass day at work, but I'll probably end up going. Also, class tomorrow night. Should be fun.

Nancy bought a Wii recently. It'll have to satisfy my gamer craves for now, until I eventually buy my own 360 Elite. Whenever that'll be...

Still chalking up ideas for "Birds of Bright". I need to start illustrating.

Party on Saturday at Anna's house, hopefully.

And that's a wrap!